Beautiful & True

Sometimes late night conversations can get deep.

• Friend 1: Can you love someone and not be in love with them?
• Friend 2: Yes. Why?
• F1: We watched an Audrey movie and talked about that difference. Love just confuses me.
• F2: Ya. It's weird. Loving more than one person at a time is uncomfortable too. And not knowing where you land on the love scale is probably the worst.
• F1: Oh gosh. These are things I never thought about. How do you know the "in love" from the "I love you"? And can you be in love with multiple people?
• F2: See, idk. I feel like a whore if I love two people at once. But I feel like a bitch if I ignore my feelings for one person just because I have them for another. And how do you distinguish between love and in love? Welcome to my life.
• F1: Oh man, I hate this. This is why I've avoided love at all costs. You're so much stronger than me; fighting with love and struggling through it.
• F2: Ha! More like being eaten alive by it. I'm barely hanging on girl.
• F1: But you're risking. And that's something I've never had the courage to do.
• F2: I'm not really risking. I don't actually address the issue head on. I just let it fester in the back of my mind, going crazy on my own, not accomplishing anything.
• F1: Do you want to address it? Because I totally see why you wouldn't want to.
• F2: Nope. Once you address it you open yourself up to even more opportunity for pain. No thank you. I'll take the stress of not knowing over the potential heartache any day. But it's definitely a struggle. Once you admit the feelings to yourself, not addressing it becomes even more difficult.
• F1: Oh gosh. Love is dumb.
• F2: Totally.