December 2009
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Musings on a Year
I’m lying on the floor of a church thinking about emotions and how universal they are and wishing I could love and give better and I just so much want to be better and you don’t care but if I say them out loud like I am right now it makes it real. And I just want to be good enough for myself and I want to be me and have that be enough and I want to have enough of myself to give freely...
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"Every girl has that one boy in her life, who...
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Why does this have to be true.
Unfortunately..
This guy in my life isn’t who he should be…
“The more important an action or calling is to our soul’s evolution, the...”
13632.) PLEASE GO AWAY i can't deal with having to...
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Forget-Me-Not
I think I’ll cry myself to sleep this Christmas night. It seems fitting.
The people I don’t want to miss, I miss. The people I want to talk to, don’t want to talk to me. The people I don’t like won’t stay out of my face or life. The people I need are miles away.
The holidays are great, but they suck. And I used to think that my biggest fear was abandonment, but now...
"Hey gorgeous..."
I’m sure one of these days I won’t be jealous of the other girls you talk to and comment. Right? Even though we are just friends, I can’t help but feel that pang of jealousy and protection when I see you do this. You protect me and I protect you, and I guess that’s the way our friendship will go.
Oh, but my dear friend, please don’t replace me with girls of the...
GPA SchmeePA
I should care more about my grades. This semester’s lack of concern showed.
Shut up. It’s not that bad. A normal person would be overjoyed to receive the grades you did.
But you’re not normal.
“And just to let you know, you are still gorgeous :)”
– Chad (my best friend)
Alone at Advent
Some people complain about being alone at the holiday season, but I like being able to spend my (little amout of) money how I like. And I like when people give me presents. Just me. Not us. Not them. Me. This is why I’m destined to be single forever.
Where's Christmas?
I don’t like growing up and seeing the magic of Christmas slip away. I hope it’s just college and not adulthood…
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
Serious Breakup Letter →
(via thehappiestboy)
“oh, where’d all the fun go
since we got serious i’ve been such a...”
– Blame-qui by Gregory & The Hawk
Defend the Friend
Last night I slipped back into the old Kierstin. The one who got too emotional and too insecure. The one who didn’t stand up for herself. The weak one. The one who endured so much. I’m not that girl anymore, and I won’t allow you to make me feel like I am. So you can just stop right there.
He and I are friends. Just friends. And that’s all we will be. Our friendship is too...
Know No
Him: Kierstin, you've dealt with this before. Why are you dealing with this crap?
Me: This is the first time it's been raised by him...
Him: Ah. I see. Well I'm sorry about that.
Me: It's still not ok, is it?
Him: No dear it isn't. But you already know that.
Tears Tear
It’s been awhile since they’ve fallen. The moisture gets trapped between my cheek and the pillow and for a moment I’m the same old girl. And I hate that.
I'm scared to admit to him that I'd pick him.
Can’t this just not happen.
Thank God I did some growing up this year.
(via biancasugay)
“It’s not about what happened in the past, or what you think might happen in the...”
– Along Came Polly (2004) (via writingsarah) (via quote-book)
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This roommate relationship is already better than the old one. I’m more at ease. Our souls fit better. The space isn’t invaded by dramatic gestures. So much better. I don’t miss you.
shethrills:
she aims to make this a much better place, she aims to save the world from pain and hurt, he’ll never know the love, she found through beauty, in his face, she’s on the ground picking him up off the dirt, I met a girl, she wants to take on all the suffering of the world, to help the ones who suffer escape the suffering they’ve endured, but before she saves the others, and the...
“You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer...”
– -Dr. Seuss, Oh, The Places You’ll Go!
(via hippity-hop) (via quote-book)
Douchebag
I hate it. The way you feel the need to bring up something so insignificant and then refuse to give me details. You’ve done it before. I should know better.
I’m capable of making my own assessments of his character. And if I think he’s a good guy, I’ll go with that. So shut up and be a better friend.
“I really enjoy you, Kierstin…and…I want to know if there is...”
– It doesn’t matter who said it. It simultaneously fills me with hope and dread and worry and confusion and joy. I don’t much care for that feeling.
Pretend There's a Picture
I’m in blue leopard print leggings, a bra, two hats, and a necklace and I’m eating ice cream out of the container. I am so awesome.
“God says to you, “Fear not, I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great...”
– Charles Spurgeon
50:1 →
This is magical.
1 West
Like I don’t hear you whispering in the hallway. I still live here, too. For a few more days. Please don’t start talking about me until I’m gone.
Sorry you’re pissed that I’m leaving and taking everything. Sorry that you don’t have many friends. Sorry that you’re an awful roommate. Sorry that you’re boy crazy. Sorry that you were homeschooled so you...
“New and improved with 50% less awkwardness!”
– Me. About me.
When I think about all that made me end up here, the path that I walked, I like to think that I was always destined to be right in this moment. Always moving from one moment to the next. Meant to be there. Meant to be here. Meant to be happy. Meant to be sad. Meant to cry. Meant to be strong. Meant to break. Meant to fix.
I don’t think breaking is bad anymore. Breakdowns don’t terrify...
Feist - Mushaboom
“Women are made to be loved not understood.”
– Oscar Wilde (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
